words from deep now my heart

Say i am not sad/hurt, its a lie
2 years and 10 months ..
My heart cant stop hurting or loving
My brain cant stop thinking or missing
My eyes cant stop tearing as well
But my determination & all th lies he said,
will pull me through !

Yesterday i had two same nightmare ):
& i woke up with deep heart .
its something i fear & NEVER will let it happen .
You caused my nightmare .. ):
say want me to be happy . I am not . you are th only happy one
But i will be happy soon .

I want to be strong, & i need pple to praise me on tht
So i really will feel that I am strong (:
but i dont want to hear anything about them anymore
Not from my tagboard at least.. thankyou.
I will greatly appreciate it .
And dont ask for her blog here =.=

Also want to Thanks Dennise & Steffie
th msn conference we had,
th encouragement & all (:
I hope to see you all soon around .. !
Jiayou for exam & becoming mother. lol

Next post will be a happier one.
i am going to have dinner with qijiemei later
eeeeebbbbiiiii ~
& today i forgot to bring my keys home):
S H I T T Y
lucky got manda (:

I cant say " I love you " to one person
& turn my head to say " I love you " to another person